I flew home today. People from work won't leave me alone. Being home is always good for the first few days, but I hope I can last till Monday afternoon.

I think I'm on the mend from my cold, so, yay. I can think again.

I'm feeling ambivalent about my current situation. I know I didn't do a lot of things right, and I've hurt some people, multiple times and very greatly. I don't think I can ever get back what I had with any of them. Nor do I deserve to. For the choices I've made (rare though I make them), they were made, and they're mine, and I can do nothing but take full responsibility for them, and I have. I don't think anyone could ask more of me. As much as I've wanted to change my course, I've restrained myself. It's the hardest thing I've done. I in no way did it callously, or without regard. *sigh*, I don't think I can articulate this yet, so I'll leave it to another post.